This Blog Is Not All Of Me


It’s 11:49 p.m.

March 27th.

Four days of March 2015 remain.

I published nine blog posts in March prior to this one.

I drafted five additional blog posts in March. All unpublished, including a 1,600 word post from this afternoon.

She told me my blog was brave. She knows these intimate details of my life. She knows I’m pretty introverted, that she probably wouldn’t find out nearly as much about me and my life if we sat down together for coffee.

That may be true. That may not be true at all.

This blog. It’s transparent. It’s real. It’s authentic. I’ve given it my full heart. But it’s not all of me.

Perhaps I’m a hard nut to crack. Perhaps not at all.

I know what I need to be cracked. That’s time. The kind of time we don’t have in America. The kind of time we don’t create in America.

Few have truly cracked me.

Yes, the brave who have gone there have seen glimpses of the real me. Maybe even the real me.

Thank you.

This you must know. This blog is my heart. But it’s not all of me.





  1. Linda says:

    I can honestly “see” exactly where you are in what you’re writing—and I can so identify with every word! I’m also at “this” place in my spiritual life that I don’t even know how to adequately convey “all” of who I am, or think I am at the moment. When you’re in the midst of others’ life turmoils, demands, needs, wants….you don’t always feel so grounded in what it is that makes you, “you.”

    (Almost) glad I came on your site today to find out how I feel in this same place as you.


    • Amy says:

      Dear Linda, So glad you stopped by. I hesitated a bit before publishing these words, but I found them all worth it when I saw your message. It is good to know we’re not alone. Even the most minimal words can touch someone. Tonight I’m resting in peace knowing this very short post resonated with a reader – YOU. Your words resonate with me as well. Thank you for sharing, and God bless your (our) journey. 🙂

  2. Doreen says:

    You have stated this blog is your ‘heart’, therefor, it(blog) is infused with the ‘essence’ of who you are and that sweetness permeates all. I truly appreciate snippets/glimpses you have invited us to share with you and Tom and I continue in prayer for you and your family……………hugs……….

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