It’s been almost two years since my husband passed away from cancer, 19 months since the release of my book, “The Apple of My Eye,” and one year since I published anything written on this site. With the exception of my book, I’ve been largely silent since the passing of my husband.
I feel like a fish out of water.
But life hasn’t remained stagnant. COVID happened and seems like it’s here to stay. My kids and I have been working our way – slowly, surely, and uniquely – through grief. This website has undergone a massive platform change and it took a whole YEAR for it to finally be finished. 2021 was my best year ever for the photography business! And I’m dating again.
I have no idea where the future is heading, but God is present, active, and very much at work.
Yes, God is before us, behind us, and beside us. We not alone in the uncertainty of what is to come.
Maybe you find yourself deep in the aftermath of a divorce. Maybe your teen is struggling with addiction and you’re clueless as to how to help. Perhaps you’re grieving the loss of a loved one, the loss of a job, the loss of a dream you once held dear. Maybe you’ve fallen away from church and COVID has taken a toll on your friendships. Maybe you’re lost in a sea of medical bills, appointments, and worries. Maybe you can’t forget, can’t forgive. And your heart feels tender. Or broken. Maybe it’s just all TOO MUCH, and you’re over it. Maybe you don’t know where to start or how to start over.
I don’t know where you find yourself today. But if you’re like me, you’re in a bit of a transition season.
Let’s ask ourselves three important questions…
- Where am I?
- What do I want?
- Who is with me and for me?
Sit with the questions. Sit with the answers. Let yourself feel and let yourself hope. Be grateful. And be open to the surprise of what you might uncover and discover as a result of this sitting with your life. Just for a moment. Be still. Be still some more.
Then, when the time is right, when you know in your heart, your soul, your very being, that the time is right to move along, to move through, to move forward towards whatever that next thing is? Do it. Begin again. Know you have everything in you to lead the life God purposed for you and only you. You are here for a reason. You’re not finished yet. Not only will you get through this, but eventually, you will thrive. Yes, thrive.
Begin again.
There is more for you. The best days of your life are indeed, AHEAD. Believe it.
Begin.
Again.